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My Love

I have cried more on losing my cat I remember Than for any human Humans They had reasons to love Less casual more formal My cat had none She came Loved me to bits And then Left me a mess.. Nevertheless She showered the purest form of love I ever received It wasn't for my body,  nor my wisdom She loved me for who I was With no expectations,  no compulsions Yet, she left Giving me a lifetime of love In those few numbered days For which I forever remain grateful Until my  last breath..

Kiss

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Kiss your cat Kiss it on its forehead Kiss it before it's too late Hug her Hug her tight For you never know What foul play the life unfolds You fear you'll get sick? Even if so It'll be far less than by any human will Kiss your cat Kiss it now My spoken poetry

Moins est plus

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I know i know, it ought to be 'Mili' but she'll always be 'Milli' to me.😍😘 My dose of oxytocin My love, my sweetheart My baby-boo Your nails, your tail Your fur Your scream Your hop, your jump Your wobbly walk Your funny run The faces you made Everytime I forced a medicine Down your throat And then your expression of anger  By showing your back to me The way your loud cries Woke us up Wanting to be fed  At twelve and then early four Then you need to be made to Pee and poop Your funny reflexes Taking its own sweet time To function The way you dug your nails  Deep into my skin, Just to latch, never to hurt The docs visits Made me a nervous new mom And you my neonate I'm no longer a mom though I have taken up other responsibilities These days I'm more of a dad Getting to spend time with the kids  Only after my office hours But you my baby  Will always be my first child You opened up Entirely a new arena In my life and of my family It's fun watching my par...

Hope

A ray of sunshine, amidst dark clouded sky. You were my light, at the end of a dark tunnel. A very beautiful hope, of a life filled with pure love. You made me realise, how miniscule we humans are, how limited our idea of love is. You lead me onto a journey of a selfless love. You took my heart.  The way you latched onto me, oblivious of your sharp nails, at times digging them deep into my skin. The face you made, unaccepting the multivitamins drops I forced into your mouth. Kissing your forehead on those last few moments we shared. I see you around everywhere, your shadow being by side, as always. My baby boo, my chitti, my sweetheart.

Anger

We process grief in stages. It passes through denial, anger, guilt, helplessness and finally acceptance. These may vary from person to person, in different order, emotions are last thing to follow any predicted pattern. I have several reasons to be angry. But anger doesn't make things easier for anyone in anyway. It further pushes us into deep trouble. Isn't anger like any other emotion which makes us aware of the life within?? I have hurt people close to me by using hurtful words uttered in anger. Though unintended, they must have for sure scarred their heart. But we all need a let out. Unless the useless stuff leaves our body we can't add anything more useful as its replacement. So everyone has a right to feel anger, without hurting anyone else. I am angry, more of helpless, scared may be. We all are leading our lives as if it is eternal. Hoping for a day when all our problems will vanish. When all our needs will be met, all our desires fulfilled.  The funny part being be...

Life

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How unaware are we of the different lives around. How narrow is our scope of thinking, limited to our own needs. I have seen people grieving the loss of their pets over the internet. I had lost a pup when I was a kid myself, he was with me for less than a week, as far as I can recall. The pain then was too bad, I had blamed myself for it, though it was never anything in my control then neither it was now. How do you erase the glimpses of seeing your child that helpless?? Holding her lifeless body in your arms. Making desparate efforts to find a way out. How far do you control your instincts of a parent and of your profession as a doctor?? I wanted to intervene as a parent, but the doctor in me disagreed. You have to trust the person who has more experience at handling such emergencies.  After all even the doctors are human, with their own limitations, it's unfair to expect miracles out of them. They can't play the role of God, they are just an instrument in his hands. May be it...