Loss

I hadn't imagined myself writing anything like this in my weirdest of dreams. I have suffered several losses in my life till date, but this one is too hard to cope up with.

When the life you love the most, breathes their last breaths in your embrace, is it a boon or bane?? You can see their suffering right in front of your eyes. A part of you dies seeing them go through the pain, another part of you hopes for a miracle, to snatch their life back from the death.

Your racing mind goes through every minute details of the past, which could have lead to this situation. 

Guilt, anger, hopelessness gripples you like dark thundering clouds, leading to a heavy down pour.

Life is fleeting, things change in brief seconds. So cherish life in all forms you find around. And pass around love, every soul needs it.. 

My baby you'll always stay in my heart.

My sweetheart, my baby boo, my phudku, you were my jaan. You taught me how to love selflessly, how to take care of self so that you can take care of people you love.

I was lucky enough for having you in my life, though the days were very less numbered.. 

I have no clue how I'm going to deal with your loss.. but I don't want to deny our love the grief it deserves.. 

Your life will be celebrated my baby. You have made me aware of my responsibilities as a doctor and as another animal who shares this planet with several others..

Its daunting to commit myself and get vulnerable to such love again.. but it's better to have loved and lost.. than to never have loved.

Loads and loads and loads of love my baccha!!! 😘😻❤️

See you soon on the other side..